I first met Josiah one year ago tomorrow. He was an itty bitty little 5 lb man and just precious. We recieved word from our adoption agency that he was ours just 6 days before and we were so not ready! We had no crib, no car seat, clothing, nothing. So, we literally went from 0 to baby in less than a week (with MUCH help from friends and family)! Josiah's birth mother came to meet us that day, as well as have one last snuggle with him. When she handed him over to me, she wanted Shane and I to make sure Josiah knew that she truly, deeply, loves him. Josiah's birth mother taught me that day what selfless love really looks like. It's loving someone enough to know when you can and cannot give them the life they need. Loving Josiah so much that though she did not want to let go, she knew she had to put her desires aside and do what she felt was best for him. I love her and think about her daily. |
I'm learning a lot about selfless love these days. Specifically, I'm working on sacrificing my time and daily demands for my husband and son. I find it so easy to get caught up in Facebookland reading nothing posts, or getting distracted by a dirty house and going on a cleaning frenzy. There is one thing that I have not brought myself to clean yet... it's all of Josiah's handprints on our tv.
The one thought that gets me back to focousing and enjoying time with my son is, "He'll never be this young again." Ugh. I hate thinking about that. Then again, I'm glad I do because hopefully I will purposefully enjoy and soak up as much as possible now, so l have less regrets later. I'll wipe the tv down soon, but it's nice to see those little handprints that will never be that little agian.
I want to focus less on the demands of life and more on what is really important. Though Josiah probably won't remember these days, I hope I can begin building a foundation of playing and loving on purpose so he knows without a doubt he is loved and valued.
Here's to enjoying relationships and life on purpose. There will always be time for Facebookland and cleaning, but maybe just during nap times. :)
I want to focus less on the demands of life and more on what is really important. Though Josiah probably won't remember these days, I hope I can begin building a foundation of playing and loving on purpose so he knows without a doubt he is loved and valued.
Here's to enjoying relationships and life on purpose. There will always be time for Facebookland and cleaning, but maybe just during nap times. :)